Tuesday, March 07, 2006
I've officially lost my mind
I've decided to take an earnest shot at a weekly blog. I know I was too overambitious initally, thinking I would stay on top of this on a daily basis. Weekly, there's a shot.
So I am having a drink with my ex-girlfriend tonight. Apparently, I have this masochistic side that is bursting at the seams. The ridiculousness of it all. First, it took me over a year to get over her (we dated for a year and a half). Second, that last "half" was spent sleeping in the same bed without physical intimacy and the relationship ended with me saying the worst thing I've ever said to a woman, which I am not going to share at the moment. Third, I am wearing a new shirt (new shoes and a new belt too).
Now, I extrinsically have no interest in this woman anymore. She isn't even a blip on the proverbial radar. I also have no desire to make her jealous (perhaps subconsciously, but I doubt that as well). The best I can come up with is that if there is a shot in hell I can have one more night with her, might as well take my shot.
Sometimes, I don't like me.
So I am having a drink with my ex-girlfriend tonight. Apparently, I have this masochistic side that is bursting at the seams. The ridiculousness of it all. First, it took me over a year to get over her (we dated for a year and a half). Second, that last "half" was spent sleeping in the same bed without physical intimacy and the relationship ended with me saying the worst thing I've ever said to a woman, which I am not going to share at the moment. Third, I am wearing a new shirt (new shoes and a new belt too).
Now, I extrinsically have no interest in this woman anymore. She isn't even a blip on the proverbial radar. I also have no desire to make her jealous (perhaps subconsciously, but I doubt that as well). The best I can come up with is that if there is a shot in hell I can have one more night with her, might as well take my shot.
Sometimes, I don't like me.
# posted by fragle21 @ 3:27 PM 
